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Writing 101, Day Seventeen: My Greatest Fear (warning: might be stressful)

Writing 101, Day Seventeen: Your Personality on the Page

What are you scared of? Address one of your worst fears. If you’re up for a twist, write this post in a style that’s different from your own.

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I have never tried a Diamante Poem before, so hope I have the structure right.

MY FEAR

DEATH
SUDDEN, BLOODY
DRIPPING, DRUNKEN, DYING,
DISASTER, CORPSE, KILLER, MISCHANCE
SCREAMING, NUMBED, CRYING
FEARFUL, DREAMLESS
LIFE

My biggest fear is that this accident could happen to me again. If it did, I fear for my sanity. I have not had any sort of counselling for this, so it lays dormant until I look at it. I have not felt the pain this bad for quite a long time. Perhaps, I should have let sleeping dogs lie.

For a newspaper clipping of this accident, go to this page.

 

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10 thoughts on “Writing 101, Day Seventeen: My Greatest Fear (warning: might be stressful)”

  2. Sue says:

    devastating thing to happen. Should get counselling, bus, train drivers etc., are made to get counselling when things like that happen to them, people deliberately jumping in front of them would be the worst.

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    • Thank you Sue. It took me years before the anniversary would pass by without me remembering, and that is a guilt in itself. Not remembering. My one relief was the deceased was single, without children. In fact, that was the first thing I asked at my official police interview, about three days later. Somehow it was more bearable, though he had an elderly mother. I didn’t seek counselling, I’m not sure if it was offered, and it’s something I don’t know if I would respond to in any positive way. No amount of talk can take it back, but I think I may have purged something with this sharing. 🙂

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  3. Christine, what a dreadful thing to happen to you! Yes, if it is troubling you, counselling would help.
    Do hope this didn’t stir it all up again for you!!

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    • Barbara, thanks. As I just said to Sue, I think making myself reach inside to find the words for the poem has purged them somewhat. I was surprised at my reaction to the exercise, I did distress myself a bit and dreaded coming here this morning to see what I had actually written. The diamante is so dark and I chose the upper case deliberately. I came across the newspaper clipping while I was doing that last one about my home when I was twelve. I had intended to write about my fear of Alzheimers but felt the need to share this part of me.

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  4. This was extremely potent and powerful writing and when I even let myself think of what you went through, I am stricken with grief and anxiety. Nobody should ever have to be put through that. Writing is sooooooo cathartic – – for me it’s the best (and cheapest!) form of therapy and I see you’ve found that as well. Take good care, now!
    Stephanie

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